But there is something I've been thinking these days...and this might be because of something I went through during my one week holiday...
So, I actually went to a double date... BUT I wasn't one of the dates, I was actually...being the 5th wheel of that double date. O.O
Yeah...that double date includes my brother - his gf, my brother's bestfriend - his gf, and me.
I actually didn't thought it would be awkward during the date, since I know my brother and his bestfriend is like my second brother, but I was SO WRONG~! ><
I, didn't even feel like it was a date (when I was only with my brother and his gf), I just thought it as a dinner just the 5 of us, but it was still SO AWKWARD @@
When they were talking to each other, or just talking to one another (my brother talking to his gf and my bro's bestfriend talking to his girlfriend) I would just look so blank and I will have nothing to talk about...so most of the time, I'm playing on my phone, messaging everyone I know and tell them to chat with me...
It's not like I was silenced throughout the whole dinner...I did talk to them, but only some times~><
I actually regretted going out with my brother, his bestfriend and their gfs...
Not only that, whenever I go to Facebook, I will usually see most of my friends talking about their relationship with their bf or gf...
I mean, I don't really mind if they like to talk about it, but it just makes me....feel like I'm alone? xD Hahaha...I don't know...I've just been feeling kinda lonely these days and...I never had a relationship my whole life so I'm kinda envious of my friends that has a relationship or was in a relationship before (cause they have the experience) :P
I know this was a weird, kinda lonely post? xP but I feel like I've been inactive here, and this was the only thing that I could think of xD
Alright, I'm going to end this post now >< but not with a quote :)
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| I feel like this quote is kinda like an motivational quote for me too~ so I had to put it up :) |
