Forever Alone? @@

Hello fellow readers, once again I was inactive on my blog...which is bad ><

But there is something I've been thinking these days...and this might be because of something I went through during my one week holiday...

So, I actually went to a double date... BUT I wasn't one of the dates, I was actually...being the 5th wheel of that double date. O.O

Yeah...that double date includes my brother - his gf, my brother's bestfriend - his gf, and me.

I actually didn't thought it would be awkward during the date, since I know my brother and his bestfriend is like my second brother, but I was SO WRONG~! ><

I, didn't even feel like it was a date (when I was only with my brother and his gf), I just thought it as a dinner just the 5 of us, but it was still SO AWKWARD @@

When they were talking to each other, or just talking to one another (my brother talking to his gf and my bro's bestfriend talking to his girlfriend) I would just look so blank and I will have nothing to talk about...so most of the time, I'm playing on my phone, messaging everyone I know and tell them to chat with me...

It's not like I was silenced throughout the whole dinner...I did talk to them, but only some times~><

I actually regretted going out with my brother, his bestfriend and their gfs...

Not only that, whenever I go to Facebook, I will usually see most of my friends talking about their relationship with their bf or gf...

I mean, I don't really mind if they like to talk about it, but it just makes me....feel like I'm alone? xD Hahaha...I don't know...I've just been feeling kinda lonely these days and...I never had a relationship my whole life so I'm kinda envious of my friends that has a relationship or was in a relationship before (cause they have the experience) :P

I know this was a weird, kinda lonely post? xP but I feel like I've been inactive here, and this was the only thing that I could think of xD

Alright, I'm going to end this post now >< but not with a quote :)

I feel like this quote is kinda like an motivational quote for me too~ so I had to put it up :)

100 Truths! xP

Alright, I know what you readers are thinking..."Why on earth are you doing this here? and NOW?"

Well, first it's because I am bored and I decided to blog :p Second is that I saw this on one of my friend's Facebook page (like I said, was bored xP), so I told myself, this could be interesting, BUT I only dare to post this on my blog and not my Facebook (go ahead, judge me, I don't mind :P)

So...here it goes~ :)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Pepsi
2. Last phone call: My friend, Bernard (who isn't picking up! ><)
3. Last text message: My friend, Angelina
4. Last song you listened to: Starlight - Muse
5. Last time you cried: Last year? (Don't really remember)

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Got back with someone you've broken up with: Nope
7. Been cheated on: by a friend? Yes
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No
9. Lost someone special: No
10. Been depressed: Yes
11. Been drunk and threw up: Nope

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 
12. BLUE~
13. Purple
14. Red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2013)
15. Made a new friend: Of course!
16. Fallen out of love: Nah...
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes~!
18. Met someone who changed you: Hmm...don't think so
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yeah~
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Nope

21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friend's list: Nope
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: I'd say 70%? xP
23. How many kids do you want? This year? NONE @@
24. Do you have any pets: Nope, can't have them (Sadly) :/
25. Do you want to change your name: Nahh~ I like my name :3
26. What did you do for your last birthday: My birthday has not arrived yet :3 But I hope I can celebrate it :D
27. What time did you wake up? 5.30 AM @@
28. What were you doing at midnight last night? Sleeping
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for?: My Mid-Term Break~~ :P
30. Last time you saw your Mother: Last week

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Become more productive! :P
32. What are you listening to right now: Sunday Morning - Maroon 5
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No...
34. Who is getting on your nerves now? It's a what, my assignments ><
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook
36.Whats your real name: Tan Yong Loke (Grace)
37. Nicknames: Too many @@
38. Relationship Status: Single (ever since I was born ><)
39. Zodiac sign: Leo (Rawwwrrr :P)
40. Male or female? Female~

41. Primary School?: Pay Fong 2
42. High School?: Yok Bin
43. College?: Taylor's University Lakeside Campus
44. Hair color: Black with red/brown highlights (they are fading T.T)
45. Long or short: Long~~ xD
46. Height: 164cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yes x3 (But I think he knows...or doesn't...I don't know~><)
48: What do you like about yourself?: Mostly my smile and imagination~ but I like
everything about myself~^^
49. Piercings: Ears
50: Tattoos: None
51. Righty or lefty: Lefty (and proud of it :P)

FIRST:
52. First surgery: 2 Years old (on my right arm)
53. First piercing: Ears (When I was 17, I know, why so late right? xP)
54. First best friend: Janet
55. First sport you joined: Badminton
56. First vacation: Langkawi, Malaysia (I think)
57. First pair of trainers: Erm...don't remember @@

RIGHT NOW: 
58. Eating: None 
59. Drinking: Water
60. I'm about to: post a blog post :P
61. Listening to: Distance - Christina Perri Feat. Jason Mraz
62. Waiting for: someone to call me in Skype @@
63. I'm feeling: Bored? xP

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? Of course~ Two or three :)
65. Get married?: Of course~~!
66. Career: Anything related to broadcasting :P

WHICH IS BETTER ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: Never experience both from the opposite sex, so...both? xP
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Older (even by a few months :P)
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice arms
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship

HAVE YOU EVER:
75. Kissed a stranger: Never
76. Drank hard liquor: Yes (Sake when I was in Japan)
77. Lost glasses/contacts: Definitely xD
78. Sex on first date: Never
79. Broken someone's heart: Nope
80. Been arrested: Nope
81. Turned someone down: Yeah...
82. Cried when someone died: Yeah... :(
83. Fallen for a friend: Yeah...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
84. Yourself: Yeah~ I should, shouldn't I? :)
85. Love at first sight: Not until I experience it...@@
86. Heaven: Yeah
87. Santa Claus: No
88. Kiss on the first date: Hmm...It could happen? :P
89. Angels: Yeah
90. God: Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
91. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Never
92. Did you sing today?: Yeah xD
93. Ever cheated on somebody?: Never
94. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: To my childhood, I miss it so much~ x3
95. The moment you would choose to relive?: Hmm...I would relive the time where me, my brother and my two cousins are in my brother's room playing video games (PS1) xP I miss those times...
96. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Maybe? 
97. When was the last time you lied?: I don't really remember o.o
98. Are you usually late, early or right on time?: Right on time :P But sometimes late ><
99. Are you a good person?: Yeah :) 
100. Are you posting this as 100 truths?: Definitely~ What else can I name it? :3

So...now you know...ALL MY SECRETS! DUN DUN DUN~~~
Haha Just Kidding :P But I do hope this lets you know more about me~ >< If not, maybe I'll post something similar like this in the future? :3
Well, I got to admit, it was kinda fun answering those questions :D I shall end this post here~ :)

Lots of new TV Series these days o.o

Once again...I'm talking about TV Series ><

My brother has got to stop introducing me to awesome series~~ I'm afraid that I can't watch them all~~ or focus on my studies (That's worse of course o.o)

But yeah...my brother has once again introduced me to another series...It just started not long ago, but it had already gotten high ratings o.o
What is it called?

Hannibal
Yes...Hannibal Lecter from the movie Silence of the Lambs...If you guys don't know who he is...well, to summon up, he's a psychiatrist......and a cannibal. Yes my readers, he eats humans...But don't worry, this series is not solely just on him, it's about another detective too. This detective, Will Graham uses his imagination to catch villians. Yeah...it's really interesting :) If you watched Silence of the Lambs, you'll know that Hannibal is quite an interesting character, despite him eating humans of course >< I kinda recommend anyone who loves watching TV Series to watch this :) If you don't mind gore and well...cannibalism o.o

My brother did also introduced me to a series call Arrow, but I've only seen the first episode, didn't even finish the first episode really >< But I don't think I'll follow that TV Series xP But I can tell you this...it's definitely a chick flick @@ Wanna know why? The main guy, shows off EVERYTHING when he exercises (body, strength...) And remember this, I've only watched the first episode and already he's exercising and showing off TO THE MAX O.O
Well, this was kinda a short blog, but just wanna update you guys on the series I'm currently watching :) Don't judge me if you think I'm watching too many ><

Anyway, here's a quote :3

Tragedy struck while having fun hanging out with friends :/

Hello fellow readers :)
Wonder what do me and my friends do when our class is reported cancelled? We go hang out and shopping~~ :P

Yes my readers, I had a one day shopping/hanging out day today with my fellow friends~ :3 It almost looks like a reunion party or something o.o

We didn't really shop that much, I bought a few clothes...only @@ We ate the most throughout this one day hang out xD

We first ate Korean BBQ for our brunch, then half an hour later, we had our dessert which is ice cream~~^^ (and I'm suppose to be sick o.o) then shopped at a few places, wonder around, chit chatting~ and we went and ate again~ but this time, it's cake xD

We kept on laughing and laughing for the silliest things, friends kept on taking pics (of themselves and with friends~^^) friends one by one went home...take more pics~ xD I guess it's kinda like a regular hang out day?

You're probably wondering....this is no tragedy...what's with the misleading blog title right? Well...All fun ended when it was time for ME to go home (back to my hometown) Wanna know why? Well...After stepping in to my Aunt's car, I was checking everything was with me...but after I checked...I realized, my dorm's keycard...was MISSING!!!

My dorm's keycard is a very precious thing to me, why? Because without it, I can't go to my dorm of course...not even the entrance! My University is very protective that way...

I panicked...and quickly asked my friends to help me find my keycard, while I kept on checking my bag and pockets...

In the end, you probably already know... No...I didn't find it and now, it's really lost. :/

I guess this is a life lesson given to me by...God? Telling me to NEVER EVER put my precious belongings such as my dorm keycard, in my pocket...

But...this also made me realize (how amazing they are~) and appreciate...my friends :) Because when I asked them to find it for me, they went to EVERY place we've been to and find it...and when they couldn't find it, they kept on asking me to check and check again...and when it was really lost, they felt sorry for me...(Overall, they were very concerned about me ><) It made me really glad to have friends like them :') It also made me appreciate them even more now~~

Well...that happened to me. This tragedy also made me realize something, but maybe I'll tell you in a next post (If I ever remember to write it ><) All I need to do now, is to move on, happily celebrate my mom's birthday with her~ and pay the fees for a new keycard for my dorm on Sunday...

PS: STILL sick...dunno why :/ but I think now I'm getting a cold~~><

Happy Quote to end this post :3

University Life & NEW Banner ~~

Hello fellow readers :) I don't know why I KEEP forgetting to update my precious blog >< Forgive me? Haha~ well...maybe I'm too distracted...mostly by my University Life though...@@

It wasn't what I thought it'll be...Sadly :/

I thought Degree will be better than foundation, but it's worse in my opinion o.o Why? 

First off, Everyone's in groups...

Everyone is not a stranger to one and another anymore...that's not good in my opinion, because it's getting harder and harder to make new friends you know? :/ I was hoping people will interact more with others...but even as they did, it's only for a short while, then they are back to their own "groups'" topic >< (I may be guilty on that part too...but I just hope that they wont isolate the new students and new friends~)

More pressure O.O

Yes...pressure, pressure and more pressure >< During foundation, we didn't even need textbooks, but now? Every subject needs a textbook... Every lecturers said that their lecture notes are just a little "part" of what will be out for exam (and it's a little true o.o)... Tell me you won't feel pressure once hearing that line...>< 

More...interactive? Among lecturers and students
Although the interactions are lacking between students, but it's getting better between lecturers and students :P (In my opinion of course) Because in our tutorial, every lecturer will help each group/students when they have trouble answering questions :) Not only that, there's more activity between lecturers and students, not all according to the book (which is actually nice :D) My favorite was during "Critical & Creative Thinking" lecture (first lecture actually~) Our lecturer called us to draw a normal cup of coffee, and your own creative type of a cup of coffee~ and every lecture/tutorial, he will want to have a "dose" of our cups of coffee at the beginning of the class :P
Note: He kept on saying "Yeah, I remember that" when he sees my cups of coffee xD

So yeah...degree really is a big change from foundation o.O But...I hope that I can get through it~! :D Come on, it's only the first semester right? Can't give up now, can't give up ever :)

Again I apologize for not being active in updating my blog @@ I'll try to update it more often :) Oh, btw I've FINALLY changed my "Blog Tittle Banner", is it nice? Hehe~ I think I did a pretty good job :P (Took me FOREVER to figure out the right size btw...) I hope to make other modifications (If I can of course ><) on my blog...hehe~

Note: Having a sore throat is NEVER fun :/

This quote is awesome :D Originally I wanted this to be my banner xD

Extra quote :D It's not about happiness, but I still love LOVE this quote~^^

Smile :)

Sometimes...you just have to you know? Hehe...smiling is a very good way to start out a day, don't you agree?

Maybe it's just me? But I always start my day with a smile~ not a creepy smile of course hehe...just a simple smile...

Smiling is just like a laugh...it's contagious~^^ If you smile at someone, immediately that person will smile at you back :)

Hmm...I have no idea why I suddenly wanna talk about this but...I just want to you know? :) I want happiness and smiles to be spread...I want everyone not to feel stressed or depressed all the time...smile once in awhile~^^

I have a favorite song that always lighten my mood up whenever I hear it :)
and yes...the song's name is Smile~^^ It's quite an old song...rarely get played on the radio...but I still love this song~ :D

Hope that when you hear this song, you'll smile immediately like I did~^^
I mean yeah it's a love song...but it's just so sweet in my opinion~ :D

Well...I just wanted to share this song to you guys~ feel like the world needs a smile right now~~

so... SMILE~~~ :D

New Series I'm Watching~ :)

Hey everyone~^^ It's been quite long since I last posted a post on my blog...I am so sorry~ I've been...busy? :P [And also...I've been having SO MUCH trouble on posting and adjusting pictures ><]

Hehe alright, maybe I'm not THAT busy...but I've been doing other stuff~ but I'm back to report about stuff~ :P

I've been watching two new TV Series~ :D Both, of course, recommended by my brother xD

First, It's "The Following"

This series is about a serial killer who created a cult while he was in prison. He created the cult online. There's not much to talk about this series...all I can say is... It's messed up~! @@ But it's also interesting :) This series just started not long ago so...It only had it's eighth episode this week. I hope you guys do check it out~ :D It's quite interesting but beware...sometimes there will be cliff hangers at the end of the episodes.... so, it might frustrate you guys too xD

Second, It's "Community" :)

This series is a comedy~ It's about a group of students/friends in community college~ They met each other during a study group meeting (?) Can't really explain it well... you must watch the first episode to see how they meet each other~ ><

Ermm...follow up, this series is fun to watch, trust me~ :) And...this series actually made me miss my college friends even more... >< [My holiday is so long~@@]

I actually started watching another series quite long ago but I didn't say it on my "TV Series" post, so I thought why not say it in this one :P

The series is called, "Modern Family" xD

Modern Family is a comedy too~ The way they shoot this series is kinda like a documentary type... you know, with interview and all that? @@ If you have seen the show "The Office", you'll know what I mean...

So...the Modern Family is formed with 3 family.
1. A married couple with two daughters and one son.
2. A Gay couple with an adopted daughter.
3. An old man who married a young woman with a child.

Complicated right? Well...it's not really @@ They are all one big family~ :) The series is really entertaining, but also meaningful~~ it's really worth watching~^^

Well, any TV Series lover like me? You guys can go check out these series~ :D They are worth the watch~ :)

Alright...post ends here~^^ I promise I'll post up something soon~~